So I know I sort of dropped off the face of the blogosphere once my month trial was up, but there wasn't a whole lot to write about. In summary: I've continued with the vegan experience, I've been traveling with the family twice and succeeded in maintaining with only a few slips. The most surprising vegan treat was the vegan chili I got in Florida at a tiny roadside restaurant in the everglades where they served a lot of alligator. Not as in they would serve alligators at the bar, but that they ground up alligator and presented it in the form of gator burgers for curious tourists like us. In fact, sweets enjoyed a gator burger, although he told me it was really just like chicken. I didn't feel like I was missing much.
Today I observed that for the first time since this started, I've been seriously craving non-vegan food. Not like a big steak or anything (although my friend's buffalo burger at the local brewery looked really tasty the other night), but more those things which aren't as obviously vegan unfriendly. Like breakfast burritos. Tofu scramble is tasty and all (and I have some in the fridge that I need to finish), but for the past few mornings I've really wanted a big potato and egg and cheese and green chile burrito. With maybe a little bacon, just to spice things up a little. It's hard to walk away from a breakfast burrito, and when they're good, they're amazing. I'm not sure that eating a breakfast burrito would actually help with the craving, and I'm not sure what it is about the breakfast burrito that I want, but I know I want one.
Actually, the whole egg thing is sort of getting me down. I guess because we have a local source where we could get happy eggs, there's this part of me that believes that a fried egg wouldn't be the end of the world. A tasty fried egg with some toast- oh, that sounds good. there's no vegan analog out there to replicate the rich and deliciousness of a fried egg. Or a soft-boiled egg. I've been so obsessed with this, the other day I happened to see these awesome egg cups on etsy and I ended up buying two of them. They were just too amazingly awesome to pass up. I think I told myself I would use them for paper clips in my office. I just like the design of egg cups, but there is a part of me which would like to have a good soft boiled egg.
I've been reading the China Study, trying to remind myself about the evils of a non-plant-based diet. I'm definitely getting that cow milk is bad on so many levels. But eggs- other than the whole pre-living thing issue with eggs, I'm just not getting it. What am I missing? Why am I being so dense?
And why are vegans so snotty? I've been lurking on a vegan forum but I can't bring myself to post because there seems to be so many conversational landmines regarding veganism. Can't talk about how it makes the body healthy because hey, there are fat vegans out there too. And apparently the skinny ones want to you marvel over the fact that they can do three hours of yoga a day, not that they only eat kale and millet. Can't talk about weight loss because that's just so imposing western ideals on our natural selves. And I definitely can't raise the whole egg thing because then clearly I'm missing the point and need to be taken out and edumacated for awhile. gar.
So today's post is all about being disenchanted. But sticking with it because it still feels right, even if it drives sweets up the freaking wall already.
Oh- and I haven't lost any weight since starting. because vegan junk food is just as tasty as non vegan junk food.